Ground Yourself.
Abi would you rather float away?
As I write to you, itâs 3:16 pm on Sunday. The sky seems torn between raining heavily and sending us the sun. Instead, it has decided to give us a sort of semi-gloom. You wonât catch me complaining though. I like the gentle breeze and the sleepiness in the air. Itâs peaceful and Iâm obsessed with this moment. I canât freeze the moment through pictures, so Iâll freeze it through writing (I wrote this before they started having a party in the house next door with loud Fuji music. sigh). Letâs leave all this mushy stuff aside and get into the content of todayâs letter (cue the squealing in glee).
This morning, I overslept (I did the whole âI woke up, but I laid back downâ scamđ), which wouldnât be such a bad thing if I couldnât afford to oversleep. You know, on some days, itâs cool to do that. Itâs okay if you stay in bed until 12pm sometimes. Today was not one of those days. I woke up completely off-kilter. Sometimes, itâs almost as though when I float away in my dreams, my mind drifts too, and when I wake, my mind is still like an unmoored boat thatâll continue to sail away until it reaches solid ground. I spend time with God in His Word and prayer and fiam, the unbalanced feeling clears on its own. But, since this girl had the bright idea to sleep through all the alarms she set at various intervals in the night, she had less than thirty minutes to get ready for church. So, I continued feeling out of sorts. I know this sounds like one big excuse, but I promise, itâs not. I know thereâs a lot I could have done better to avoid it and that I canât continue to hide under the âGod understandsâ banner. So, I went to church, and I was still in a not-so-good mood, acting like I was the mascot for depression and teenage mood swings.
I rarely get my balance back when I do things like this. Occasionally, I'll spend the entire day feeling out of sorts. And then, there's also the teeny fact that I'll sometimes feel guilty. Enough about me though. What am I saying gan gan?
In a world of variables, the only constant is God. Where everything is doing shaky shaky, God can be trusted to be agidigba (Randomly remembered the lyrics âWhen i fall yakata na you. And when I stand gidigba na youuuu). If you've plotted a straight-line graph with the equation before, you'll remember something along the lines of y=mx+c. For the entirety of that graph, c would be unchanging. We called it a constant1. (Forgive me, I just really love mathematics.). Your life is y, all the curveballs that life can throw at you are your m and x, and God is your c.
Now that you've got a constant in your life, someone that you can tie your existence down to,2 why choose to keep floating around? No matter what else changes, God can be trusted to remain the same.
A.W Tozer said âI am the Lord, I change not⌠All that God is, He has always been and all that He has been and is, He will ever beâ.
Often times, Iâm awed by the dependability of God. The Bible in Proverbs 3:5 says to Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. About 63% of humans trust themselves to a large extent. Me telling you not to trust yourself is like saying âOh, that thing you have in your mind is all wrong, run it by so and so firstâ. Surprising though that may be, itâs true. People can and will fail you3. Even you will fail you. Your mind will fail you; your body will fail you; even your friends will not always be there to help. Your dad wonât always be available to send you money when youâre broke and broken. Of a truth, thereâs no single human being in your life that can be more trusted than God can.
What Iâm trying to hammer into your head is that You can and should trust God. Why? Because He can be trusted.
This year, intentionally decide to trust God and trust that even when you donât understand and have no idea, He canât mismanage your life. Nigerians would say âHe canât do you mago magoâ. I once heard someone say, âI would rather have God mismanage my life than manage it myselfâ. And we know that God doesnât mis-anythingđ. In Numbers 9:15-234, we see that as much have learnt that they werenât exactly always cooperative, the Israelites wouldnât leave camp unless The Cloud left first. They could stay half a day, a week, or a month. Sometimes, theyâd spend a year there without breaking camp. It wasnât as though they didnât know the way to Canaan, they just didnât go without first being led. A prime characteristic of being led is that before the leading comes, you must first trust the one who is issuing the leading.
Yeah, thatâs all for today. I started writing this letter some time last year and itâs been sitting in my drafts all this while.
Ground yourself, get rooted, allow yourself to trust.
Until next time,
All my love,
Ayomideđ¤
Also, Happy New Yearđ¤
Iâm using the past tense here because sadly, I no longer do mathđ
Believe me, there is nothing in this world that is more dependable than God.
If youâve not already heard about my friendship heartbreak, check it out in my previous posts
15 On the day the tabernacle, the tent of the covenant law, was set up, the cloud covered it. From evening till morning, the cloud above the tabernacle looked like fire. 16 That is how it continued to be; the cloud covered it, and at night it looked like fire. 17 Whenever the cloud lifted from above the tent, the Israelites set out; wherever the cloud settled, the Israelites encamped. 18 At the LORDâs command the Israelites set out, and at his command they encamped. As long as the cloud stayed over the tabernacle, they remained in camp. 19 When the cloud remained over the tabernacle a long time, the Israelites obeyed the LORDâs order and did not set out. 20 Sometimes the cloud was over the tabernacle only a few days; at the LORDâs command they would encamp, and then at his command they would set out. 21 Sometimes the cloud stayed only from evening till morning, and when it lifted in the morning, they set out. Whether by day or by night, whenever the cloud lifted, they set out. 22 Whether the cloud stayed over the tabernacle for two days or a month or a year, the Israelites would remain in camp and not set out; but when it lifted, they would set out. 23 At the LORDâs command they encamped, and at the LORDâs command they set out. They obeyed the LORDâs order, in accordance with his command through Moses.
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